Fathers Notes July 29 2009

Father Today I stopped and thought about life. How the days are rushing by....
I at times feel in the dark of knowing the out come ... But Father I know that is not unusual for anyone..

All our lives are in your hands ...Ted's and Bobby's are still in the balance. Cheire heart seems to be lighting up on and off with joy

Emotions confusion and simple things that seem to be fixable become so complicated.
I am not confused.. I now know how you work not completely but what I do understand is that
It all becomes a challange of trusting and love for you.

I pray for our Face book Families and Friends and all the others who are connected to our world..
I know I cant see them all or follow up on every individual .. they mean the world to you So I will continue to depend on the Holy Spirit and the Blood of our Lord Jesus Christ to protect every one.

Father Please continue to help me focus on your plan and overcome these emotions and pass every trial you place before me..and help me sustain and over come the hits I get from my own hand when I fall short..

I know I am human and I know that I am not perfect but continue to keep me focused... On You..

You know that having Bobby with cerbral palsy, Cheire an Jo are a handful and you know Now with Ted's condition you have kept me on a tight line..

I am slowing down and Totally waiting on your next move. Father I depend and am trusting your every move. I trust you Father with all my being. Father what I have experienced feels like a slap to my face... BUt I dont se it as a put down.. But as a wake up call .. Father please remeber I am only human but I will honor what you ask from me .. I will stand not because of me or my might but because you... Father You have earned my heart through our Lord Jesus Christ My mind and my spirit are and will forever surender to your will ..

I dont understand it all Father but I dont have to anymore ...
knowing that you love me so much tells me that you will do what is best for me ...
I am standing on your love to keep me strong and moving forward ...in Jesus name....

What I face in the future is nothing compared to the boot camp training you are giving me....I know this is to be true because I have felt strength rise in me because of you..
Love you
Father.....

At times I want to scream in pure emotional pain.. But as I realize You are God .. I am at peace .. Your will be done...